Forgive Me

How long has it been?
    A blink of an eye,
        a camera shutter closing,
            the tick of a clock

How much did you love me?
     A sad song,
          an old black and white movie
              a shining winter's night

How much did I love you?
      Another language, words exotic on the tongue
           chocolate on a rainy day, after not doing anything right
                Half waking dreams of the years to come, two lives wound together

Flashes of memories
      dappled shadows on a summer drive
            flurried snowflakes
                laughter, lingering in shadows

I can say it all,
    I can say it beautifully
       But its not what I need to say,
           or what you need to hear

Not murmured dawns
     or whispered leaves
         shouted stars
              or even spoken words

I am sorry I speak too late
      I am sorry I speak too sad
           I am sorry I speak too long
                I am sorry.

I am sorry.